exactly.
i would not DARE talk about this to the people here at school.
and i know you guys will always tell me what to do and shit.
i really appreciate that because right now i'm so confused about everything.

and i HATE bitches that hook up with chicks for attention.
that really pisses me off.

like you and mike being a little bit gay, which is a step towards full homosexuality

it was a conditional concept, not a concrete statement.

i wish lori was still here so his extensive knowledge on freud could explain it

if only his parents were divorced..

Yeah, I dunno if bisexuality really exists. Like, I believe that being gay is something your born with, something you don't have a choice about, that's just the way you are. But I honestly can't see someone being born thinking "I can't decide between either." I don't mean any offense Chelsea, I'd say what you're going through is perfectly legitimate, you obviously aren't doing this for attention, but I'd be hesitant to say you're full on bi. Bicurious is a good word, college is a good place to explore these types of things, I think your just in a stage where you're not sure what to think about it. Maybe you see some type of bond with this girl now that may you may perceive to be a sexual desire for her but if you two were too actually hook up you may found out that you don't really feel the way you thought.

EDIT: Where did Lori go, I swear I saw him post not more than two days ago?

yeah itd be open and shut then

Bisexual girls are fucking awesome. I'm not saying the butch ones that you don't really care that they are bi. But the hot ones you find out and it's just an added plus when everyone's drunk and you convince them to do whatever.

What I've heard experts say, is that girls can be bi. But if a guy is bi, he's usually gay but still coming to terms with it.

And being bi doesn't have to mean you're on your way to full on gay. (unless you're a dude, like james/mike)
You can be attracted to girls and want to do whatever, but still prefer relationships with guys. Because that's who you click with on an emotional level. And by emotional level, I don't mean "oh i can talk to him/her about anything blah blah blah", I mean the whole love thing.

Or you can just send them to hetero camp

There's actually an article about sexuality in the new Playboy talking about bisexuality in men, and like Jon said, they do think it may not exist. They studied a bunch of dudes and the blood flow to their wangs with different types gay and straight stimuli and then neutral stuff. Apparently 75% of the guys who claimed to be bisexual only had blood flow with the gay stimuli and 25% only had it during straight stimuli. Interesting stuff. It's very different for women however.

rapturetheflag: We have been getting screwed by the system. The system that forces us guys to like girls. All right? We're getting pushed into this. What if we just take the girls out of it? We can have our own system, it's a counter-system. And then, you do things together, you swim, you row, you... boat, you eat, you stink. We can just be guys! You can have sex, you can do it, you know, many guys at a time, but it's not gay.

james what the fuck.

speaking of bi girls, a friend of mine is bi and we were on our way to the club last week and i got stuck in the backseat with her while she was fucking wasted. well, she was ALL over me and she's not even cute. she was like "chelsea, i wish you liked girls because if you did, i'd be all over you" and i wanted to be like "BITCH, you're all over me now!!!!!!". she did that shit for the rest...of...the...night...needless to say, it's pretty awkward between us now and we never hang out anymore. and the girl i like was there too so we sat by eachother and talked most of the night.

I had a nickname for you, but I'm not gonna tell you. Ok, fine it was LASER!

Again this sexual preference argument is like a genre argument in music, you like what you like and should surround yourself with people who don't care what you like. Labeling yourself is just going to force you into a stereotype.

chelsea: don't stress it too much, if you're interested in something not considered "the norm" realize "the norm" is just where stuffy people chose to live their lives so they don't actually have to deal with living their own lives the way they actually want to live them. Let others call you what they want, but as for you make sure you know you're chelsea and nothing more or less.

also, i accept the fact that I'm a little hot for james, he's my philipenian princess.

James would be the princess

thanks alot, mike. i've seriously been weirded out at myself over it. and it really didn't just start to be completely honest. i stayed at southern miss for girls state a year ago and i started liking this girl named annah and we would talk and stuff. i got really scared because i didn't know what to think or feel so i just prayed about it and forced it out of my mind. so now that i start to have feelings for another girl, i don't know what to think again. i'm just going to stop forcing it away and just deal with it and see what happens.

I've got a way to solve this problem once and for all:

Are you hot?

if you end up not enjoying whatever you chose just chalk it up to experience in your own life. it's the only way to grow up.

Russ think I'm pretty cute so I guess that says something. lol

Russ' dick is not my dick! I need proofs!

Bryan, sex story time!

I'll save you the trouble:

James took your shirt off and kissed your nipples. You put your ring-finger in his butt and then he finally let you take him from behind. The end!

absolutely no mp3s for you.

What ever shall I do?!

go on aim so i can send you some?!

I'm leaving very shortly to go watch movies at a girl's house

chelsea, i think it's awesome that you've realized all this stuff about you and you accept it. you don't try to hide it and shit, if that makes any sense.

you go woman

getcha some

hahah
thanks alot, b.

no problemo, c-money

Dude, Props for the sig. There's too many Longhorn fans in fucking Virginia and I tell them all they're wearing the wrong shirt. That aside;

There's only two cute girls I've even noticed at my school. One says I hate her, The other stares at me and whispers with her possibly gay friend about it. (I think) Man, highschool is silly!





That's probably the best thing to do. Or maybe talk to someone who has been in the same situation and compare? Either way, very commendable. Oh, looks shouldn't really matter on either end.

i like this one guy a whole lot. but he's moving in two months.
and for some reason i'm stressing over this really bad.

My ex is in the same scenario. Slam the dude while you can?

Are you guys in a relationship together? Or is it one of those i-need-to-tell-him-my-feelings-before-he-bails type of deal?

nah, it's not a relationship. i don't know if i want it to be or not because of the whole leaving thing.

penis dude?

no, not him

I once threw burning magnesium on the girl I was dating at the time. She got so turned on.

Magnesium was easily the high point of my chem class last year. The lab we were doing involved lighting only a small inch long strip and observing the ultraviolet reaction, but my friend and I managed to steal the entire roll of roughly 12 feet coiled together, and lit it up inside a pitch black room later that day. It was pretty fucking awesome, like we had a mini-sun in the middle of the room.

I did that today. It was awesome. I copped the entire roll out of the lab room, it's in my garage atm.

The high point of my chemistry career was lighting giant bubbles on fire and making coffee cans explode.

I write my name in hand sanitizer and then light it. Thats always fun.

curveball from tallgirl last night at the bar. things arent looking too great.

Haha shit what happened? You can't tell us about a curveball and not explain it.

she was hookin up with another psu ball player on the dancefloor?

she came up to me as soon as i got in the spot and gave me a hug/kiss. i walked over to the bar and shes like introduces me to some guy, who i remember she took on her hayride a few weeks ago. im like cool whats up guy or whatever, then later im pretty sure i saw him like kiss her face when they were talking. i pretty much didnt talk to her at all for the night and stayed in my own group. she was in nyc this weekend and i saw a picture of them sitting on a lounge couch together. its whatever i guess.

ended up trading phone numbers with this other girl ive been digging recently, so it wasnt a total waste. i wasnt as bummed as i thought when i woke up this morning, i guess since my gut feeling was right, and that she wasnt feeling me like i thought. or maybe she is and doesnt know how i feel, who knows. theres still plenty of time left and plenty of alcohol to drink.

i was supposed to get dinner tonight with this girl, but like ALWAYS it fell through. i have no idea why i still talk to this girl when she pulls shit like this. she'll ask me to go see a movie or get dinner, and then she'll bail the day of. you would think i would learn a lesson, but i asked her on sunday if she wanted to do something this week, because i havent talked/seen her in a bit. she agreed, we set up dinner for wednesday (tonight), and when i texted her today, no answer. her away says something about losing her phone, but she texted me this morning at like 11...didnt text me back when i texted her at 330 or 6. ill just never talk to her again, she how she likes them apples.

Same way man, I haven't seen this girl in months but I still talk to her cause she's cool as hell, she can just never fuckin hang out. Pisses me off a lil bit.

know that one pretty well, but i've also been the one to do it a bunch. easy come, easy go.

about to end it. i think. i dont know what she wants anymore